Saturday, March 8, 2008//1:52 AM

OneTreeHill

Season 5 has got me hooked like anything please! And little Jamie Scott is wayyyyy cute.
I gotta pray harder for my Nepal trip, its bugging the hell outta me.
I think i have loads of bugs right now. Naw, not your creepy little critters. I think they'd be more friendly though.
I just wish i could be as articulate on pen and paper and verbally like lucas and haley. I think it may not seem like a real ift to me back then, but i guess i'll appreciate it sooner or later. Now why can't i just say the same thing to myself right now. i guess we'll never know.
And i hate it when people try to play the hero and say they're fine when they're not and then their bad attitude overflows right into your lap. Like that's not helpful at all.
I bet when i look back at this post, all the words will succumb to the delete button. And they deserve to. Bitter words that should never be spoken considering how fortunate i am. I know i am, i just cant feel it right now. But right now, these words ought not to be deleted because they exist somewhere in my head. And i need to get them out. Foolish as that may sound. Random thoughts that plague you if you keep silent. If its foolish to blab them all onto a typing space, i think its even more foolish to bite your tongue.
Considering what an awesome night and semi day i've had over the last 24 hours, the person typing this has not had much fun at all. I think i need another bottle of beer. Preferably corona's or heineken's. Holla. If peyton hasnt been that peyton for the last 3 years, then i guess its possible that I'm not myself for some time. Although i'm pretty sure i'm not aware of it. And im still not. Just another random thought. Along with "why's everyone going into their happy stages in life all at the same time?" And "its weird that i'm either still left on the shelf or i left the shelf early." And "i can't believe i let other people judge me. And actually cared about their judgements."
I wonder why its so impossible to be like Brucas- post their happy season in real life. Or isit just us tight lipped asians. Or some other variable i havent thought of yet.

Favourite word of the moment: Blitzkrieg