Sunday, January 6, 2008//11:38 PM

stay awayyyyyy

"stay awayyyyy please" this is what my brain needs to say to those cold unwelcome thoughts.
see now i cnt even study when its like only hours b4 my big test tomorrow. shit.
im curious and i have the right to look, but if my neck's gonna get all hot and prickly and my back's gonna feel all unwell on me then i think i gotta stop looking.
i mean, common girl, u KNOW he's a sucker for leadership positions cuz that's the only way when he feels in control and respected. so let him be happy!
if u cant deal with it then that's YOUR own problem ok.
cuz its not like u don't have a choice.
so choose, please. guys who like the background or helps out or slacks occationally, doesn't like the limelight and has no issue/paranoia abt ppl not respecting him, or paranoid, insecure boy/guy who needs ppl to respect him through being CC/OGL.
don't trap yourself bitch, THINK for goodness sake
oh and the aforementioned guy who's not the CC/OGL is no one in particular.
seriously.
juz randomised.
oh and i hope tom's alright there. i know it sucks going through the same thing for another year. hang in there tom!!!!!
oh and i CAN lie here. whee
detect the above lie,no?

God please help me not to freak out again, and please help me to do good for my test tomorrow. sigh. Oh, and thanks for helping me through my rough patches. Amen. I can do it in Jesus' name!
yes i can.