Tuesday, January 8, 2008//11:08 PM

detox

i'm going crazy, outta my mind.
was detox ever this hard? mental detox i mean.
its pouring buckets right now at 11.08 pm and i'm instantly reminded of that wednesday when there was lightning, loads of it at school.
it was freezing, it was magnificent and thunderous, winds were beating against our faces. everyone was watching. but it didn't feel that way. adrenaline and excitement, hope and dreams. why does unexpected hope exist in places where we would never go looking for?
lightning. now its associated with the memory of another thing i can't have. can't hope. can't dream.